Feb 282011
 
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We each have moments that have defined our lives. Our first word, first step and the day we first went potty in the toilet are memorable moments for our parents. The first day of school and high school graduation are big. The day we make a commitment to follow Jesus is an important moment. There are other moments that define us as well.

The day we were first punished as a child. The moment that we burnt our fingers on the hot stove. Our mother screamed when we ran out into the street. Dad slammed the door as he went out the door when he left. “Don’t cry!” shouts mom or dad. “Do you want something to cry about?” “I’ll give you something to cry about!”

The first set of defining moments might prove to be joyous high points for us. The second set might be the first steps in the path to destruction of our identity and our self-worth. Expectations met, and expectations unmet. Unmet expectations are the ammunition that destroys our ability to know the answer to the question: “Who am I?”

An unequivocal answer to that question that connects to the truest, purest heart at the moment just before our identities were attacked, suppressed and stifled is the gift that can begin the journey to maturity. Growing up starts with knowing who we were when we were born with all of our potential yet unexpressed.

So, I ask again, Who am I? Who are you?

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red letters

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Feb 262011
 
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In my first King James Version bible there were passages that were printed in red ink. These were the words of Jesus as recorded in the books of the New Testament. Just for the fun of it get one of these red letter editions (it doesn’t have to be the King James Version), and read just the parts in red in the first four books of the New Testament. It won’t take you long before you realize that some of the things you thought about what it means to be a follower of Jesus weren’t correct.

A favorite Bible teacher when I was growing up used to say that the biblical word that is translated into English as “obey” is “willingness to listen to.” If I am going to live a grown-up life in God then I will learn to live a life of obedience to God. Just writing that sentence sends shivers up my spine.

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The truth…

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Feb 182011
 
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We would rather hide and pretend than face the truth. Jesus said, “You will know the truth and the truth will set you free.” The philosopher/songwriter Kris Kristofferson said: “Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose. Rita Springer sang: “Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” I’ve lived my entire life hiding from the truth and a captive. Aaron Sorkin wrote: “Kaffee: I want the truth! Jessup: “You want the truth? You can’t handle the truth.” The truth hurts. I hurt. But, I want freedom!!!!!!!

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Feb 152011
 
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My Grandma Geneva

This picture captures the essense of my Grandma Geneva, she

Jen Eva Daffern met my grandfather, Charles Hight, when they were students at Keene College in Texas. Grandma “Geneva” was the glue that kept my childhood together. She lived in the house next door to us. At Christmas she could be depended on to get the underwear and T-shirts we would need for the next year. My grandfather Charles died before I was born. Grandma Geneva was married to a man we called “Wilson.”

If there is one word to describe Grandma, it is “worker.” For many years she worked at the LA Times and their billing departments. She was the person who tried to pick up the gaps. She loaned me the first car I drove on a date, a Ford Falcon. She got the seats re-covered for the event! She made sure I had a place to live when I returned to La Sierra College in my junior year.

It’s hard to have a favorite grandmother, but she was the most involved grandmother I had. She helped pay for the tuition at Newbury Park Academy, the boarding high school I attended. I have some of her old furniture in my garage. I looked and couldn’t find a picture of her. I’m going to get one from my sister. She died way too young, at the age of 58, when I was a college junior.

I know she would have loved to be around to see Victor and Valerie born. She would have cheered on my fledgling business ventures, some of which would have probably been more successful with her involvement. I never doubted my grandmother’s love. It’s been many years now since her passing and I haven’t thought about her for a long time. But even now, I sense the memory of her presence in my life and it was good. She left too soon and is dearly missed. Continue reading »

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If our lives are like a sweater, then growing up and getting real can cause things to unravel all around you. It doesn’t help that I am really angry about some stuff. My immediate family and some of the people I do business are getting the brunt of my unraveling. I’m hoping that when the yarn is all laying in a pretty -multicolored pile on the floor that I can use that stuff to make something new I can call a life.

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